New Years

So another year has passed, people born, died. Things happened, things didn't happen, life moves on. So today I came up with a jingle to celebrate the new year -

"Another year, come and gone,
another year, another type of government attempted in the middle east.
Another year, another new gizmo made by ipod...and yes it's good,
another year, another random season from shitty tv shows.
Another year, another mistake bush has made,
another year, another person to die...and apparently his death is something that has never happened to this country...but it happens every fucking day.
Another year, another media hype about terrorism,
another year, another addicting game to show its face to the world.
Another year, another crappy movie made by our friend Michael Bay,
another year, another year, another year.

Lol... idk why I thought of that, this year was bleh. So you can understand some of the things in my poem, i'll talk...briefly i hope.

The government in the middle east...there was a woman who just got shot because she was running for president of Afghanistan...or was it Iraq? She was shot, and a suicide bomb came in, at least that was what i was told. Seriously, it's just a woman trying to move up in life, but god forbid her for trying something, we all have to just freak out -_- i really don't know why we are stepping into the situation.

The new gizmo, the Iphone. It is amazing, love it, convenient...but for entertainment purposes and work purposes.

Shitty tv shows? Transformers made the new show, as said in an earlier post, i can make a list quite long actually...but this is my view. Drawn Together, Spongebob, Squrriel boy, Chowder, Out of Jimmy's Head, Jimmy Neutron, Back at the Barnyard, I carly, Codename Kids next door, Grim adventures of billy and mandy, Ed, Edd n Eddy, Drake and Josh, Just Jordan, Lizzie McGuire, Proud Family, Brandy & Mr. Whiskers, Buzz on Maggie, Lilo & Stich. I shouldn't continue...i really don't want to actually lol.

Seriously, mistake bush has made, not going to talk lol.

Ok, so the person to die, Sean Taylor. Great man, shouldn't have to die that way, but why is this so fucking important?! I mean, people get shot every day, hell Ms13 does worse, they shoot people, burn them, cut them, goddamit people look at the obvious situation! People die everyday, yes they are shot too, but who gives a fuck about them? Apparently if somebody famous dies, everybody freaks out. But who cares about the poor sap who is shot 13 times, then has their arms, legs, and head cut off. Wow people. Redskins, sorry for your loss.

Media hype about terrorism, don't want to go there either lol.

Addicting games to show? Halo 3 *made more money first weekend than the film industry in same weekend* Call of Duty 4 *amazing* Mass Effect *super amazing* Bioshock *Won game of the year*

Michael bay, Transformers, done.

So those were some things this year, 2008 here we come!

Tv shows, what happened?

Seriously, the question is a good one. What has happened to TV shows? I'm watching right now a new TV show on cartoon network about the transformers. What the fuck. Seriously, it is WRONG. Anybody seen the original transformers? Lets see, the ark crashed into a mountain after a fierce fight with the decepticons, and they stay under the mountain for millions of years. Now...the new show, no, hell no. The ark crashes into lake Erie. Then it waits 50 years. Bumblebee isn't even a buggie car. Optimus has a mouth. WHY....WHY GOD WHY?! *cries in a corner* they didn't even use the real optimus prime's voice to voice the cartoon character. *wails* one last thing, they change their appearance so they can "blend in better" no......that's not why they changed, they HAD to change to stay alive with the energon being too abundant. You know what, i'm done watching this, but my rant has a point.

The real point is that cartoons these days are spastic shows with no point to them. Spongebob, used to be good, now it seems that spongebob is on crack and there's a problem in which it can't be solved...like making burgers o_O. No wonder kids are so messed up these days, they have the wonderful help from TV yay. I actually don't watch tv anymore really, only when i'm really bored...or futurama is on.

Now there's a new thing that's kind of like TV. Veggietales. Not movies, not tv shows, but something of the sort. These shows to me are the ass-end of religion trying to show kids that religion controls them...however it does not come off like that at all. A good example of people actually noticing this is from Drawn Together *...that show should not exist, it's just one racial joke after another...or something wrong* but they did do a show about veggietales, it was funny...for once.

Tv has just gotten weird. Don't really understand it's point anymore, just spassims...great.

Christmas

So...i've noticed that nobody has replied... lol whatever.

On to the wonderful day in the year, christmas. Why is christmas so wonderful? Well there are plenty of reasons...that really don't make sense. First, christmas started with the birth of christ, but i want to ask children and see what their view is. Is christmas celebrating the birth of christ? Or is it about the one thing that children need, presents, presents, presents. Who cares about getting others something, lets get presents! I mean... understand me when i say this. We already have children that are "immune" to diseases, and now we want to give them the idea that on this one day of the year, they get whatever they want. I can slightly understand that you are giving to others, but will others give to you? Took me a while to figure that out. I wouldn't mind getting some stuff that's on my christmas list. Actually it's nice for every once-in-a-while you see a letter from a relative saying merry christmas, makes me feel good inside. But I now make sure that I get my families gifts first, not saying that I expect a reward for giving, but what I do expect is that I give first before I am given. So..to not confuse - Give first, don't expect to be given back - simple. But I hear songs saying "I want everything for christmas" or I see kids *not much younger than me* getting upset of that they didn't get what they wanted for christmas. It's christmas, ya get what ya get and take it. At least somebody is giving you something...I mean if you want we can go on the fall back plan everybody uses, what about africa?

Ok, going on a random tangent because of Africa. People, get this, this is NOT new to the African people. Darfur? It's happened already. Egypt had the same situation thousands of years ago. Recently, Somalia was also controlled by a dictator. Now it's Darfur. Did the people of darfur go to the media, or did the media go to them? It just shows that we need "action" with our stories. Now everybody is freaking about something that has been going on for THOUSANDS OF YEARS....took us long enough.

Back to christmas...for a second. Basically, children are spoiled rotten, and nothing is changing. I just can't wait to see Peter turning out to be a rabbit.

uggg...

Ugg....

I do not want to be at school, should of had a snow day but nooooo, the county hates us, oh well time for me to think.

In philosophy class, we had a person say "God never makes mistakes" and I replied "Platapus, what about the platapus?" the person shut up, owned.

But seriously, if you are that concieted in thinking that your religion is right *by all means do so, freedom of religion* can you give examples of how god never makes mistakes? If this so called "Perfect" being is...perfect, then how and why does he make mistakes? Short, but answer and discuss

more catching up!

Ha! On another computer and i'm bored as anything. So I'm still working on "katching" up! (HA A PUN, EAT IT)

To quickly say something, Call of Duty 4 is amazing. Done, said it, woot.

Now on to the rants.

First rant: Movies

What is up with movies these days? They are not good...or about 5% out of all of them are good. For example, this weekend I saw some movies on TV (National Treasure, Final Destination 2, and Freddy Vs Jason) National Treasure, not bad, has action but nicholas cage is an alright actor...he reminds me of neo from the matrix...he has the exact same pitch with his voice..>.> Final Destination 2, terrible, I was laughing so hard because it sucked so much. For example, there is a kid scaring pigeons and jumping around, somehow this causes a person to stop controlling a crane, which is carrying a glass plate over the kids head...and he dropped it. Right on the kid, I couldn't stop laughing. That's just bad luck. Another thing, on a highway, a truck with a full load of trees breaks, so a log falls off and impales a man in the head (one down) then a woman with a child in the car tries to stop but APPARENTLY a water bottle has caused her break to not work because it's behind it, so they crash into a log (3 down) then another guy is driving..like an idiot and he crashes into a gas tank, apparently his seatbelt has fused to him, and he can't get out. This movie, sucks, no don't go, don't think about it, run away. Finally, Freddy Vs Jason, good fuck no. Since when has a movie sucked so much? I was laughing like a mad man. You know what, i can't even explain it, it just sucked past anything imaginable on this planet, and yes that's more than The Village.

So movies are done, blah. I'll rant again soon

catching up

Ok, haven't been on in a while, stupid computer can't even axcess the internet anymore, so screw it.



To rev people back up to speed, november was a..fun month. List form!



- Decided that I am going to join the marines

- Realized that philosophy and religions don't mix

- Had thanksgiving....mmm turkey

- Realized that 99.9% of the people that visit the mall I work at are stupid

- and much more!



i'll touch up on every topic...



First off, marines. Yes, going into the military, boot camp starts after senior year and I get to head to this wonderful little island with sand and wood ticks, woo! Nothing else there really, short and simple.



I realized that religion and philosophy don't mix, why? Because people do not have open minds with religion... for example, we are starting on ethics. We talked about Homosexuality. Personally, I got nothing against gay people, but for some reason it's the biggest topic in the universe apparently. It's kind of funny of how the religious nuts in our class say "Homosexuality is bad" and then they say that the bible doesn't say that "Homosexuality is bad"...I no understand. In the bible...it says that "Things that go against the natural order, are bad" no, it doesn't say that exactly, but you get the jist of it. Besides, even if the bible didn't say that, you are still saying that homosexuality is bad..for the same reason. Then, there's always that ONE FREAKING PERSON that has to go to the problem of the idea of god's existence. I hate that topic, I hate it with all my soul....because it will never go anywhere. We started talking about it, and the kid who brought up the topic (by the way, he is currently reading a bible that is on his desk >.>) says that "God is real because the bible says so"...kind of funny how this happens...due to the bible. First of all, this is PHILOSOPHY, what is philosophy? The understanding of everything...or the saying that we are wrong at everything whatever. It's not the understanding of god. If you want to preach about god and whatever your religion is, please do not do it at school...in philosophy class. Big no no. I'm sharing some bigotry here, but hey, it's my point of view so ha!

Thanksgiving...mmm turkey and mashed potatoes....mmmm

Ok, the mall. I work at Godiva in the Dulles Town Center mall in Sterling Virginia...and the people who go there are impossibly either stupid...or just morons. Three good examples of this. 1. We are having a semi-slow day, and this man walks in. He strolls towards our strawberries dipped in chocolate (which by the way are in a case with a sign next to it saying "need assistance") and take a guess of what he did. He just grabbed one up and started eating it... What the fuck. Are you serious? Is a person THAT stupid to think that an item in a case is a sample...?? No, no no no no no no no no. Stupid. Then a guy comes in the same day, and asks if those are samples. No, no no no no no. 2. So we have shakes, and they are damn good, but a woman comes up and asks "are there any sugar free shakes?" ....lady....this is GODIVA CHOCOLATE. The term SUGAR FREE should not exist except for only 3 chocolate types..which are in the corner. 3. This just happens all the time, but people come in and ask how much our chocolate is. When we tell them our price, they put on a wild face and go "Are you kidding me!?" yes, and do you want me to wipe your ass while i'm at it? No. This is GODIVA CHOCOLATE it is REAL chocolate, not HERSEY KISSES, not SNICKERS, no this is as close as you can get to belgian chocolate..in america. It's going to be expensive. Stop being stupid. And to end this, abicrombie the store, smells like ass, and they play the same FREAKING MUSIC OVER AND OVER FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT.......DAMMMIT. Enjoy, hopefully more updates...will use other computers.

Honor

Honor, the idea of one who dies in battle.

I contradict my posts by saying, I do care about myself in a certain way. I wish to die with honor. I will accept my death, but only if it is protecting those who are important to me.

But then, in another point I guess I have already died. I am a corpse who has accepted his fate, and will continue to stay on this planet to bring happiness to whoever he can. I will not dishonor myself by commiting suicide, it is a weaklings way out of life, and I will conqure any thoughts otherwise. I will consider all of those who persuade me otherwise are fools. On further study of Nihilism, I have realized that I do not follow this idea perfectly. I am nothing, however the universe is not. The universe probably has a purpose, but I don't need to know what.

I have created my purpose in life, my purpose to protect. To protect under situations is to die. Death will honor will serve my purpose. Death, the icy-cold fingers whom have claimed lives of the famous and the poor, however the icy-cold fingers will never touch me. I will die, but I will not be dragged by the hand of death. I don't fight the man, I fight the law. Death will take me, but not by force.

Spawn

After posting my last post...well I'll leave it as it is. However, it has made me think more to what religion looks at "Evil" itself.

I've been reading this comic series, called "Spawn". Genius comic series, it shows a different aspect to the ideas of religion itself. Over the summer, I went and bought the Armageddon series of this comic book, basically it was the best of the entire series itself. It answers the simple yet complicated questions, however true they may or may not be, it does a good job in talking about religion.

The first question it asks is "What created god?" The question that has probably been asked a thousand times a thousand, times over. If there is this "Ultimate being" around, how did he get to be the "Ultimate being"? The way this comic represents it is that there is a level BEYOND god himself, with no name, no gender, no aspect. Mother. It is called "Mother" the being who gave life to incredible life forms such as god and the devil himself. This then goes against the idea that Lucifer fell from heaven, but it says that they are siblings at war. I find this to be... partially true in it's own way. If there is an idea such as "Mother" the creator of all, then that would give god a place in life.

The next question asked is about the "Rapture". The Rapture *for those who don't really know that much about it* is an belief that Jesus will come to Earth and take people to heaven when the time is right, simple and nothing else descriptive. However here's a question, what is Armageddon? Is it a war between heaven and hell? If so, what are the forces used between the two? Is the rapture simple a draft to join heaven? It's so fictional it can be true! We have no definite evidence of what the rapture will be, what Armageddon will be like, we don't even know if the four horsemen are beings on horses. The man who said everything was alone in a cave, possibly on some kind of drug, which can tell us things that may not be true. As for my opinion, I stand on my side of being Agnostic, and I still wonder that something is out there, but it's not under organized religion.

The devil and his golden fiddle

It is early afternoon and you are driving in the car with your family. You are in a state of depression, slowly spiraling out of control due to your nature. It isn't controllable, and you fall.

You wake up. Nothing, Darkness surrounds you. You look for an exit, yet the space is infinite. You start to panic, nothing is going to save you. But you see a light, small and dim, but light nonetheless. You run towards it, your only hope for salvation is at hand. You keep running, the light changes. It remains where it is, but the color...the color changes to red. You soon realize your error and stop. You try to retreat, no good. Your body is frozen, as if Ice has encased the flesh, yet there is no ice. A voice, a single voice is heard. Your ears, they bleed. The syllables of this voice, this sound causes you pain. Then it begins.

You are still in darkness, but something is different. It takes you a moment to realize what happened. Your skin, the skin is gone. All that remains is muscle, no blood, just muscle. You scream in agony. The "air" against your muscles bring pain that is unimaginable. You are helpless, standing in this frozen state in pain. Then the orb comes back to you, to finish the job. Your muscle is stripped of your body like simple clothing. Your organs, muscular flesh, all gone. You are a skeleton, yet you still scream. You receive pain that doesn't exist on this planet, pain that would never be thought of. Time flies by, how long has passed? Minutes? Hours? Days? You still scream, it is amused by your pain. It moves in one more time for the final clutches ---

You wake up, you see your family in front of you. You are being shaken, asked many questions. You do the wrong thing, you shrug it off. The memory is hoped to be lost, yet it haunts you forever.

I ask myself everyday about this. Am I dead? How could one deal with that and not be dead? My life before myself has been based off this one event, no, I can't move past this. No matter what a person says, I can't move on.

Own happiness

I have been thinking for a while. I ask myself, will I ever achieve happiness? As said before, it always seems like I need something else, my life just doesn't seem worth it. I always dream, I wish so much that things can be different. I try to listen to music, to loosen the distraction from the world so that I can create my own world where I can be happy. Another way that I loose myself from this world is by playing video games. I play them so much, that I either imagine myself in that world as an important person, or I'm too busy playing with my friends online. I need to do this because sadly I can't find happiness in my house. But why? Why can't I find happiness in my own home? I look around and see fake smiles, I don't know if they are putting on a mask for me so that I don't go emotionally crazy, or that they can't be mad at me. The only person I could talk to at my house was my Brother. It wasn't a close relationship like other kids, but I could ask him questions, he the same. He was a person at my house who I could in a way, rely on for help. But time moves on, he's now at college, and I don't blame him for going, it's his right. Now though, since he has left, all pressure has been placed on myself. I can't make one mistake without it being shown to the entire world it seems. This idea of my alternate world slows me down, yet I can't go past it. Maybe because it has become a habit of mine, creating this world for over five years now. I can't move past it, and I don't know why.

Late night and I need to type

Well, it's about 12:44 right now, kind of bored and I'm watching TV on Veoh, but I have been thinking about something.

What is going on with the idea that you can sue anybody you want? I mean, a couple of years ago a woman spilled hot coffee on her lap, and she sued McDonalds for a crap load of money...and she WON. How was it McD's fault? I mean, I don't like em, but it doesn't mean that they are to blame. American people have just gone stupid. People *yes I do it too* blame others for so many reasons, but why? We seem to need to blame others for our own actions. I wonder if I saw a car accident, could I sue the person who caused it because I could? That makes no sense, but I know somebody would. American's have been spoiled by the idea of Freedom and Democracy, and this has led to our country, going haywire. I say we move to Canada, they are just like us, only with better rules..

Reply to ze Monkey

Ok, this is kind of what I'm saying here.

When did Saddam have "Weapons of Mass Destruction"? We haven't found them yet, maybe south park is correct and Saddam is making chocolate factories that look like missile silos in the sky. No. No missile was ever found. The only thing Saddam did, he dumped nuclear waste in the Tigris and Euphrates rivers, and he killed a ton of people.

America is the best in virtually everything. Ok, how are we the best? Is it because we have technology? Sorry, Tokyo is in the year 3000 and we are somewhere behind. Is it because we have the largest economy? Sorry, Monte Carlo makes more money than us and the place is the size of about Rhode Island. Is it because we have the most nuclear missiles? To some, yes, but to Iran who looks at us with insane eyes and they can obliterate us at any moments with their WMD's that WE GAVE THEM, so no. Isolationism policy kind of existed in WWII, we just wanted to stay out of it. We did give some supplies, so technically we didn't follow exact protocol. Japan for years did. Nobody was allowed in or out of the country. That's the idea of Isolationism. We were attack at Pearl Harbor, for reasons I have no idea about. Do you think that if we Isolate ourselves from the world, we will be attacked? Do we have to do the kicking, so that others won't kick back?

And to answer your question, I would love to help people in South Africa, but that's not the US's job, no, that went to the United Nations. They had control over that situation.

*Sigh* It will be done

Ok, been holding this one in for a while, kind of random but I have to let it out.

Halo 3 is the best game, EVER. *whew* Ok, but that's not really what I'm talking about tonight. What I'm talking about is the fact that Parents complain about video games. First of all, Video games have a E to M rating. E is everybody, T is teen, M is mature, and that's about the simple part. What parents seem to fail to see is that a child who is freaking seven years old, is not old enough to play a rated M game. Now it isn't always bad for a child to play a rated M game, hell my brother and I beat Turok for N 64 and we found all of the cheats including "extra green guts" huh...anyways we were watched by my father until about the age of nine I would say, when I understood video games were not real. Now I look at my neighborhood. Right by me is a family in which a child who is eight years old has done the following. He plays Grand Theft Auto *the newest one, forget the name* he has a BB gun, a Paintball gun, so much crap that it amazes me, and his parents don't care. They buy him whatever he wants if he cries, just to shut him up. I wonder why our society is going to fall? These new games that come out are not controlled enough. If a game says "Rated T for Teen" do you think that a child should play the game unsupervised?? Here is a good example, I play the game World of Warcraft *Omg, big shocker* and I got reported for saying "Dang"....Dang. The person who reported me said that "I said a bad word and they were going to tell on me" I personally don't believe this is an adult, but ok. IF IT IS RATED SOMETHING HIGHER THAN YOUR CHILD'S AGE, EITHER WATCH THEM UNTIL THEY UNDERSTAND THAT THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT, OR JUST DON'T GET IT FOR THEM. Is it really that hard? I watch videos online sometimes, and I found one *Ventrillo Harassment, hilarious* of a kid who is talking to another kid. Now the sound quality is pretty good, so it was safe to assume that the kids talking were between the ages of nine and 12. I believe they said the word "Fuck" about 25 times. Hmm...this isn't bad. Yeah, our future is in their hands, I feel good now. As said before, a child is easily able to absorb information that can be correct, or incorrect. If they process the incorrect information *not mathematics, just common sense* then it won't end well. To top this off, I once heard a story that a child died because he jumped into the sea and drowned, looking for Spongebob. I don't know the age, was four I believe, but the parents sued the makers of Spongebob because of the incident. Do you think that IF YOU TOLD YOUR CHILD THAT IT WAS A TV SHOW, THAT HE WOULDN'T HAVE DROWNED??? DO YOU THINK THAT IT IS YOUR FAULT AND NOT THE COMPANIES? So basically to put it, parents can go both ways, good or bad. I feel that mine have done a good job *mental conditions not their fault* so the future, is basically screwed.

Answer to the Shadow

Instead of doing the whole copy and paste thing, I hope people read your comment.

You say we are there to promote American Interest, which in my opinion is completely true. What else would we be there for? I mean, they haven't attacked our freedoms yet, I don't think that they want to attack our power to sit around and do nothing *I am a master at this* anyways, you say Democracies don't fight each other. Actually no. We can actually look at the Revolution. We as a country, chose to fight back the British. We voted on levies that would allow men to sign up to fight. The British had to vote on whether to even attack the Colonies, yes the king had power, but the real power was behind Parliament. This occurred about 232 years ago. Any reason why it wouldn't happen now? Don't think so. But, you are completely right about the oil. What's funny is that America originally found the oil because we were digging up water wells in the middle east to help out the situation over there, ironic on how we have to barge in there to get it back.

Sure we like Democracy because we think it's a good thing, but we don't start wars over that. We star t wars to protect American interests.

What American interests...? There may be some who wanted revenge over 9/11 ok, but it's been seven years, and people are starting to accept the fact that it occurred, and now we want to pull out. The only reason why we can't just magically pull our forces back is because we are too far in Iraq's government itself, and if we pulled out now, chaos would ensue. One major problem I have is that we feel the need to tell others how to run their countries. Sure, they had a dictatorship that caused deaths, but don't we also have hundreds *may be exaggerating here* of murders in our own country? We had two boys run in a school and kill teachers and children. A college student went on a shooting rampage in VT. We have problems too, but some people think that we are perfect and we need to tell others on how to run countries.

But what if Iraq had succeeded... and Bush brought peace to the middle east.

I'm sorry, but I can not agree there. For years the Sunni and the Shi'a *hoped I spelled that right* have been fighting. I don't think America's intervention would cause the fighting to cease. Only two ways this would stop. 1. Mohammad *THE Mohammad* came back to tell them to advocate peace. 2. America dictated on how the people acted. Two simple, yet insane, ways.

Nice comments Shadow, thanks for the feedback :D I'll post more later on.

Riddle me this...

I've been watching a TV show that I have named "Gundam Wing" First of all, it is amazing. The people who created this were geniuses. The show is so true to human nature it astounds me. If you haven't watched it, I recommend that you do. Anyway, it talks about the idea of Perfect Pacifism. First, lets talk about that. Perfect Pacifism, the idea that all weapons and cruel intentions can be swept away. There are some problems with this. One, is that in order to create Perfect Pacifism, you must either control or convince the people not to fight. Now it is human nature to fight, it is simply something that we can not control. So what if you couldn't convince the person, would you directly cause harm to cause them to stop their violence? Then you are going on your own ground on something that isn't right. So imagine if a person were to fully dictate the world and a sense of "Perfect Pacifism" is created. Then there are going to be the people who feel oppressed that something like this is occurring to them, and they are going to retaliate because they are being controlled by a dictatorship. This then leads to severe conflict within the two groups, which eventually leads to the idea again that if a group were to become powerful enough, they would be able to bring peace. Thus the idea is revolved over and over again until we destroy ourselves. I mean, look at the Iraqi war. What are the American troops right now doing? Trying to promote peace. But they aren't saying that people should throw away their guns, oh no, they are ordering that people throw away their guns. This can be understandable because troops could be under heavy pressure from the way and may feel threatened by the people who aren't their comrades. But then why did we go in the first place? All we are doing is repeated a bad history of violence, and the only person who can stop it, is almost in a directorship way. What's sad in all of this is that the only way I can create a blog and the only way I can say these things is because of the right that is given to me. Bush would be able to trample over me if the Constitution did not exist. So instead, he uses his "Action Executive powers" to allow the troops to stay in Iraq for a long enough time for congress, our only hope, to back him up. So now, we repeat history, and again, the United States will loose this war. It happened in Vietnam, it will happen again. Maybe we should kill all humans because it seems to me that we are a plague on this planet, and it seems ridiculous on how we feel the right to fight whenever it is unneeded. I will fight sometimes, but only when I am protecting something. What is Bush protecting right now? Tell me an adequate answer and I shall bow to you.

More answers!

Well I got home and saw that you guys replied to me in about less than 3 hours time, nice. So I have more answers to your questions about my thoughts.

"WHATS STOPPING YOU FROM NEEDING LESS?? ESPECIALLY IF YOU KNOW THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM?!"
I really don't know, I don't know why I need so much, yes there is a problem, and I accept that. I guess that the only conclusion to this is that I'm going to a psychiatrist and he's helping with the situation. Sorry I can't answer more, I just really don't know.

Why can't they just believe what they want? If there is no right or wrong, why waste time trying to "go after what they are saying?"
Good point, I let them believe what they want, and I will say and judge on what they believe, but what I think is wrong is how our world is based on this. What if everything that we know is wrong? Then this house I'm in is wrong, this computer is impossible, it goes into the idea of Philosophy that things don't exist and our minds make them up. Humans created math, what makes it right?

"can animals press a button and cause the entire planet to die *Nuclear Holocaust* not really"
Some would say that this is the reason that humans are "better."
Sadly this is true, and it gives people the idea that we can bomb everything to smithereens and walk away. If we were to do anything like that, the nuclear holocaust would occur. There is a really good web-comic I've been reading, I'll put the post on my blog, but it's about the Nuclear Holocaust and what happens, I like it. Really puts things into perspective.

Maybe your "shell" as you call it is a gift given to you which gives you the ability to make the world a better place. Maybe it's not about you!
Hmm... My shell may be a gift, but I never said it was about me. I can make the world a better place, and in a way I try to. It's nothing massive, however I try to make every bodies day a little better, laughter helps everybody out. I do what my parents ask, and I follow their commands to help them out. I talk to people, try to make them feel better as to what is going on in their life. I give people comfort. It isn't about me. I help others, and in an extreme situation I would give my life away for a loved family member or friend.

Well thanks for the questions, hopefully I can update tonight, peace

*oh, will be letting my friend who's crazy but smart as a writer, hopefully he doesn't piss people off*

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Thank you all for the comments, even if harsh a comment is good because I can work with what I have so I can do better. I shall start from the first question and move on.

"Why can't people be happy?" Hmm...good point there, really I can't tell a person on how to live their life. But what I can say is this, a person *such as myself and probably others, not really sure* always needs something more sadly, it's human nature. One can have all the money in the world, yet they feel like they are missing something. I personally belive that the only people who are trully happy are the mormons *They preach about family togetherness, and it does work amazingly, they are the kindest people on earth in my opinion* but i'm not saying we should all be mormon, but what I am saying is that if a person wishes to be happy, they must love themselves and every person around them with incredible love. Then true happiness will exist. You can gain a happy-boost *new word again!* from something, but them something else can bring you down.

"Why waste time trying to label those who are right and wrong?" Well, let me say this, I am not labelling people, but I am going after the ideas of what they are saying. If *according to another anonymous thanks :D* 2 + 2 = 1, what would this cause? Our entire planet to crash? I think that as humans, we make up ideas so that we can say that we know ideas, however we don't. If I should label, then I simply label all humans as wrong.

Next one wasn't a questinon, but a comment, and it has been hard, but I found something recently. I can accept my own death, but I simply can't imagine the deaths of others who are close to me. I don't like to cut myself, god no, but I will protect those who are close to me.

Again, not a question, but "Survival of the fittest" Created by Charles Darwin about his idea about evolution. I understand that completly, but can animals press a button and cause the entire planet to die *Nuclear Holocaust* not really... and to what is better, I really don't know what is better, I bet you anything that there will always be better things beyond humans.

To the last two comments, I do apologize, I was not in a happy mood and I may edit that blog, I can't judge them just because of their ideas, and yes, I was a hypocrite in what I was saying, have to not type here sometimes lol.

Well thanks for the comments, keep them up :D I'll post more things for discussion probably. Don't be afraid to put your names...all are anonymous lol

Puritans and other insanoe's *new word!*

Ok, a random thought right now. I'm in English class typing up an essay on the Crucible, a book about the Salem Witch Trials. One simple thought comes into mind. What the hell is wrong with these people? I mean, they demand rights to worship whatever religion they want, yet they think that they are the only ones right *as do all other religions* but how, how can anybody be so stupid? They think that if a girl dances that she is possessed by the devil. What?! Why? How can a girl dancing be controlled by the devil? Then she starts saying that others are controlled by this invisible being, and the people are stupid enough to belive her! I mean, c'mon people, make some sense here! A girl, a love-struck girl, makes accusations on people saying that they are controlled by this invisible being, and they follow her words exactly killing many people, huh, I wonder why there aren't a lot of puritans out there. I'm saying my own opinion here, but if you are puritan, you have some problems. The religion, the idea, it's stupid! Why should a person belive this religious crap spewing out of their mouths? I sure don't want to even see them anymore, learn to grow up people. Here, I won't just bash the puritans, lets go to the mormons. They have a good sense on family life, hell if my life were like a mormons it would be awesome and I would be crazy close to my family, but what is up with their religion?? I have relatives who are mormon, and apparently they have SECRET UNDERWEAR....what???? Why underwear, well apparently they wear it to every freaking service...ok they can do that, but it's creepy. They think that jesus went to America, and that the Indians were white, what is wrong with these people!? Look, belive what you want, but if you come to my house at six AM in the morning saying that Jesus went to America, back off right now. That is stupid, wrong, and get out of my way I really don't want to have a religious conversation with you. Oh, another idea that they have, apparently when you die, you become a god of a planet. The better things you do in life, the more powerful of a god you become.*pauses* What? What the hell? Who made this up?! A man reading "Golden scriptures only he could see" out of a damn top-hat. Why and how these religions were created I don't know how...but it just amazes me on what these people think that is right. I'm agnostic, I have no religious background I'm putting my back up against, but with simple logic, these religions are insane.

Driving

Is it just me, or does it seem like when you are on the road all other drivers around you just suck at driving? I mean, I'm going down route 7 at 55 MPH, and the stupid person in front of me is going about 45ish...why? Why does it seem all other drivers just suck? You notice these things and you get mad in your car. You think you are the best driver around, but why? There is no real reason, it's just natural I guess. But you notice things like damaged cars, so then you stay away from that person on the road. Then you see the person multi-tasking in the car such as eating, driving, bobbing their heads down with the music, that sort of stuff. You also stay away from them. But what in human minds causes us to think that we are better than everybody else? What causes us to think these ways? Could it be that our primal instincts kick in and we wan to think that we are always better than all others? Or is it that we as humans are just selfish and always think of ourselves? People say humans are the most intelligent on the planet, but what backs up this saying? Nothing. Nothing at all backs up this idea that humans are the smartest. Just because we made a wheel doesn't mean that we are better than all other species on the earth. I'm sure right now that humans don't have the ability to multiply asexually. That ability alone seperates the small organisms from us. Our reproduction takes about nine months, theirs takes minutes. So somebody come up to me and tell me, why are us humans always thinking that we are better than all others? Answer me that, obi-wan kenobi.

Coming to thought

This is my last post for tonight, if people read this regularly, they will see that I am a blog troll and I will update every day.

I guess that my topic for this one will come out of how my hands type on the key board. They show my things that I've never seen and yet I am typing the stuff up. When i try to think too much, it does put a strain on me. The strain is simple, why should I exist? Why should i stay in this shell of mine, living in this pain that I've created by accident? No I'm not considering suicide, I've visited that dark region many times, but Why not? I guess the simple answer is that there is too much to do with my life. There are too many people who are important to me and I don't want to leave them suddenly. I choose what I will do with my life. I say that if given the chance, I will take the bullet for a friend or family member of mine. Others will come before my life, I consider my shell to be utterly worthless but to those who care. So just because I don't want to cause them pain, I will stay on this pitiful planet, and yes, I will be typing more. I'm not trying to show off, but I'm trying something new on how to expel my own demons.

Wrong

I've posted like five times in one night, sorry about that, just getting a ton of info off of me.

I recently came upon an idea that humans in general are wrong. We are wrong in every aspect possible, yet there is no way to prove it. We base our findings on 2 + 2 = 4. But, I can do something different. I can show you on how 2 + 2 = 8. I can change the formula, go by the lines outside of the box. Humans say that they are right when they find something, but then there is a person who can easily correct you and say that you are wrong. What if they are wrong too? Then a time paradox exists where nobody can prove anybody else right. Humans need to be right, yet they are always wrong. Those who promote perfect pacifism, they are wrong. They are wrong in the fact that they think by taking away all weapons and evil tools that peace will come, however as long as humans exist, there will be no peace. I can't prove on how this is right, it's just an idea. It is an idea on how a person can think of something different and yet they are still wrong. What makes you right or wrong? Your ideas or sense of justice? If a person murders an entire town because the people have been plagued, is he right or wrong? Is he right because he is stopping the plague from spreading, so that he is saving the lives of others? Or is he wrong because he is killing innocent people? You can't prove either side, it's impossible so don't try. I pity those who think that they are right and others are wrong. They aren't right, and neither am I.

Human Mind

I can't say my life has been terrible, however I can say that I wish it were different. I watch movies, TV shows, and games, and I always ask "Why can't my life be like that?" I like every human on the planet has the idea of which they daydream or just dream of having a better life. They wish for things that will never happen, and yet sadly we will never be happy. I can try, and I shall try to be happy *with friends like mine, it's not hard* But I sit here typing this, I am listening to music, and with every new song a new setting comes into play. It's always the same being, a tall, broad man with amazing abilities, ones that aren't even possible for this planet or dimension to even know about. I always dream about this man, I wish my life was like his. He's almost the perfect human being, with his own quirks. I dream of him at the lunch table at school, he/I jumps in and does something daring. I always wonder if he/I would ever exist. Would I ever be like him? The man who is basically god? No. These dreams, these ideas are all wrong and fake. Humans are the most imaginative beings on this planet, so we make worlds for people to be something that they are not. We give them the chance to become different, but why? Why can't a human live with the life that they have? Is it that we are never satisfied until the end? Questions do their own thing, yet they never answer ones confusion. My simple question is this, can I not experience love in the fashion they show it on TV shows? Where it takes about 20 episodes for two people to fall in love and stay with each other forever? Is it possible for me to become a powerful being with every bodies attention? No. I will move on, but these dreams will always slow us down.

Church

As I said before, I somehow got into this sense that if I prayed for something, it would come true, almost like a wish. It wasn't bad parenting, or that the church corrupted me, but it was the fact that I was a young child who was almost like a sponge and I quickly absorbed information in a inaccurate way. This fault that was caused changed my view of how everything would exist. When I lost my friend, I went quickly into depression, not because of his death exactly, but on the fact that I prayed to this being called "God" and I got nothing out of it. How could a being of that caliber fail me? Wasn't it his duty to help mankind to the fullest? Yes I understand I was wrong in how I thought religion worked, but now sense I've separated from the church, I've picked up on some ideas.

Church is a community of people who wish to help you, who will always be by your side. That single idea is a reason why many even go to church. They may attend the service and say that they are Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or any other religion, however they just go to see their friends to catch up on past events. No wrong is done there. These people who just attend this place just for friends are completely fine and can do whatever they want.

What gets me are the people who I've notice to be the extremists. It may seem that there are not a lot of them, however they are everywhere. I go to the south for a funeral, and I am eating breakfast with my grandmother. A family friend is with us, and I get into a religious debate with him. I eventually back him into a corner with two options. A. He will tell me straight to my face that I am going to hell and burn for all eternity or B. Don't answer the question. He chose A, shows how much church has over the common courtesy of a person. I am walking in the hallway at my school where two girls I know come up to me and ask me if I'm a Christian. I reply no and they suddenly go into a frenzy saying that if I don't become Christian I will go to hell. Church has warped minds in this way, when has church become the most important thing for people, above the fact of how the other person would react? I wonder if Americans realize this when we go to another country and push them to convert to Christianity. Not saying that we force everybody, but I don't think Jesus ever said "And I will convert all of those who aren't Christian, to become one because they are wrong." The man wanted peace, not domination. Tell me why it is good for you to try to convert others to Christianity. What makes your religion right over all of the other religions of the world? Not saying Christianity is bad, to me this religion has gone south. Jesus Christ didn't force people into his way, he wanted peace. So how is forcing others into your religion according to his word? Tell me.

Another thing that bugs me is how the church controls children. They know on how they have informational-absorbing minds, or that they take and retain any information quite easily. My reason for saying this is because I go to my church every once in a while, and I went during their vacation bible school. I go inside the sanctum and watch this video with some kids. I have no idea what the video is about, maybe because I'm too old, or that the person who made the video was high and drunk out of their mind. But at the end, the person in charge asks "So kids, who controls your life?" and the kids yell "God!". You can doubt if I saw this or not...but that idea of what just happened is beyond mental. What is going on with these churches? The ideas of a man have been slandered across time into a sick idea of how one should run their life. Answer me religion, what is going on?

Past times

Ok, so in order to understand where I am coming from, you must first see my past.

I am a 17 year old human being who has had life given to him in it's ups and downs. I have been born with what I believe is a curse of which I can not control my emotions. They control what I do, how I do it, and when I would do the action. Sure, I have some ability to choose in what I do, but mostly everything is done with their control. I am not sure of what this curse, this symptom is called, however I guess I haven't talked to anybody else about it. I don't know if there are other people with this, and it would be amazing to find others like me.

I was born into a wealthy family who could easily support me. I had a nanny around at all times, and was taken care of 24/7. I grew up with little friends, but they increased at the years passed on. When I arrived to my fifth year in elementary school, I am not sure how, but I was stripped of all friends that I had. A 10 year old outcast with a emotional problem. The only comfort I had was from a dog who always was beside me. I considered many things, and almost took the cowards way out of this life, however some how in the end with therapy and other help, I made it through.

In my first year of high school, I was back on my feet. I had gained new friends, I was active in church, the average person. Somehow from church I gained the knowledge that if you pray for something, you will receive it. I was wrong. In the middle of that year I lost the best and most major being of my life. The one who saved me, a dog. Instead of going into details, depression followed, many bad times, and now I'm sort of back, but my mind of the world has changed dramatically.

First of all, no I'm not asking for attention with this statement. I am showing you my background so that you have an understanding of where I've been so when I say something different, you can see what I base my judgment on.

Starting off

Well this is the first post for my new blog. Nothing really special, just want to try to think of some ideas and get some feedback. Have fun reading my thoughts of philosophy and the world.....