The devil and his golden fiddle

It is early afternoon and you are driving in the car with your family. You are in a state of depression, slowly spiraling out of control due to your nature. It isn't controllable, and you fall.

You wake up. Nothing, Darkness surrounds you. You look for an exit, yet the space is infinite. You start to panic, nothing is going to save you. But you see a light, small and dim, but light nonetheless. You run towards it, your only hope for salvation is at hand. You keep running, the light changes. It remains where it is, but the color...the color changes to red. You soon realize your error and stop. You try to retreat, no good. Your body is frozen, as if Ice has encased the flesh, yet there is no ice. A voice, a single voice is heard. Your ears, they bleed. The syllables of this voice, this sound causes you pain. Then it begins.

You are still in darkness, but something is different. It takes you a moment to realize what happened. Your skin, the skin is gone. All that remains is muscle, no blood, just muscle. You scream in agony. The "air" against your muscles bring pain that is unimaginable. You are helpless, standing in this frozen state in pain. Then the orb comes back to you, to finish the job. Your muscle is stripped of your body like simple clothing. Your organs, muscular flesh, all gone. You are a skeleton, yet you still scream. You receive pain that doesn't exist on this planet, pain that would never be thought of. Time flies by, how long has passed? Minutes? Hours? Days? You still scream, it is amused by your pain. It moves in one more time for the final clutches ---

You wake up, you see your family in front of you. You are being shaken, asked many questions. You do the wrong thing, you shrug it off. The memory is hoped to be lost, yet it haunts you forever.

I ask myself everyday about this. Am I dead? How could one deal with that and not be dead? My life before myself has been based off this one event, no, I can't move past this. No matter what a person says, I can't move on.